Yarın iki sınavım var.
Salıya bir sürü ödevim var.
Çarşambaya drama sınavım var.
Perşembe boş gün ama ödevler için gidicem.
Cuma günü karne var.

Kısaca şu son 3 günü atlatayım, kesin hayatta kalırım! Çünkü ne ödevlerimi yaptım, ne sınavlarıma çalıştım. Kısaca klasik Gökçe oldum. Sonra oturup ortalamam niye 76 diye düşünürüm ben anca.

I just feel so lost, so desperately lost, so desperately abandoned. I don't know why. I just feel like sh!t and I can't even understand why. High emotions maybe, because of the thing but it isn't anywhere near. I just feel so bad, so unwanted, so unloved... It is not true although; somewhere in my heart I always know that. There is people who care about me and love me but I just can't help to feel abandon. I just feel like I am suffocating, like I can't come near the surface. Everything is just pulling me down and I don't know what to do. I don't even know why I am writing this in English but somehow it makes me feel more calm, more at ease. I don't enjoy the things that I use to enjoy and those little silly things were everything. They still are. I think I am in a phase and just wish that it will go away.

Demiş bir zamanlar bir ergen.

I cried. Not like a lot but I cried. I feel good. It was just something that I have to get over my chest. Probably my nerves couldn't handle having 13 exams in a week and then 2 days of partying. (lol, partying...) Poor nerves. Anyways, f*ck everyone and everything. That is my motto. If people don't show their affection to you, it is not your fault. I am beautiful, unique and wonderful in my own way and I will change for no one. If my closest friends don't show affection to me, it is not my fault. Everything is normal. We didn't fight. They are just not doing it. It is not my fault if I can't talk to my besties about my feelings. Oh, wait. Maybe that is my fault or better word, my problem. Anyways. Tomorrow, last day. Yey.

Kuş uçtu, uçtu da ne oldu? Süperman mı oldu, uçak mı? Uçtun uçtun da ne oldun kuş. Ebem oldun.